Simply Thoughts!

2006-09-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

SO BUZY!! SUPER TIRED!!!

Hair Do!

2006-07-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

Finally got the time to do what I have wanted to do since few months back. Heehee! I went to perm my hair! It took me three hours which is usual for me when I perm my hair. Got myself a Japanese perm. Quite like it cos now the two sides of my face is slightly covered, making my face a bit slimmer. Haha, fancy resorting to such means to make my big face look smaller. Will be colouring my hair on Sat, too much white showing. Hmmm....think will go for more drastic change and highlight my hair too!

God is in Control.

2006-07-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

Why do we feel the way we feel? Don't like the way you feel now? Tell Papa God, He is in control of everything. Surrender your thoughts and bad/sad feelings to Him, He will give you a new mindset, a new perspective, a new way of looking at yourself and others and most of all, a new joy which only He can give.

Lord Jesus, take captive of my thoughts and feelings, even when I am asleep. Amen.

40 Already!!!

2006-07-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

So the big day came and went with makan and more makan. Started a wk before the actual day and will be having more celebratory meals for the next few weeks. I can't bear to weight myself. Sob...sob...

Still, a big thank you to everyone who had contributed to my extra calorie intake. To all those who got me lovely presents, thank you so much too!

Decided to link all those who had linked me in their blogs. Very "pai seh", so can't be lazy anymore. Suddenly in the mood while doing it and started linking more and more. Heehee!

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, Being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them! If I should count them,
They would be more in number that the sand.

THANK YOU PAPA GOD FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH.

Emotions Overload!

2006-07-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

Sigh!!! I'm suffering from a big dose of emotions overload! Sad, worry, afraid, relief, happy, fear, depression, all kinds of emotions. Sometimes, I can be having all these emo in just 1 day. It is so taxing and draining on me. So do bear with me cos I've been struggling for more than a month now.

Thank you Lord that although my feelings keep changing, you are always the same, your feelings for me never change, you always love me. You are the "constant" that I need.

Help me Oh God to take captive of my feelings and thoughts to Jesus. I can't manage on my own.

STEPHEN MY DEAR HUSBAND!

2006-07-12T15:39:00.000+08:00

I SO SO SO LOVE MY HUSBAND!

THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL HUSBAND!

Revelation Revealed at 40!

2006-07-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

The significance of the number 40!

The Israelites wandered in the wilderness for 40 years before they were brought into the promised land.

My husband was lost for 40 years before he found Jesus and was saved.

I was spiritually blinded and confused for 40 years until God revealed the truth to me and set me free.

All these while, I was in the dark, not knowing that the battle was on and had been on all these years. No wonder it was such a struggle for me. "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."

Heavenly Father, I thank you eternally for your revelation to me. I can't bear the thought of being in darkness another day more if not for your revelation. Help me to put on the whole armor of God everyday, really to battle for your kingdom.

Aged Old Remedy - Sea, Sand and Sun

2006-07-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, we went to Pulau Ubin to celebrate Youth Day with the youth of course! This is the only part of S'pore that doesn't changed much except for the tourist service centre with nice toilets and the exhibit area.

It was hot and sunny but all the greenery and fruit trees made up for it. The mozzies were celebrating too as we were on their menu. Thank you Eileen for the insect repellent. Sigh. My poor arms had not recovered from the mozzies assault from church camp yet!

It's a nice change to be out at sea, kicking sand at the beach under the sun on a working day. Most of all, those kids were a good bunch! Glad we brought them out.

Little Ah Ma's blog will tell you everything, well, almost. Nice pics there too and Stephen will post his photos later, some of which I've taken.

the eagle had landed

2006-07-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

so the eagle is back! had been back for quite a while actually. somehow wings got clipped and is lying low. anyway its good to know that she's back safe and sound. at one stage while waiting for her to contact me since last Dec, i thot maybe she got kidnapped or was forced to married someone in rural China, maybe her plane got hijacked, maybe she decided not to come back to boring S'pore and went backpacking around the world. maybe....maybe....

"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

rAndOm thOts

2006-06-30T12:18:00.000+08:00

I wAs wAtchIng tv EArlIEr On, A bAby wAs shOwned And sUddEnly flAsh! flAsh! flAsh! I wAs rEmIndEd Of A drEAm I hAd lAst nIght. I drEAmEd I wAs cArryIng A bAby gIrl In my Arms, AbsOlUtEly thrIllEd wIth hEr, lOOkIng AftEr hEr wIth lOvIng tEndEr cArE! shE sEEms lIkE mInE And I wAs tOtAlly At blIss! sIgh! why dO I hAvE tO wAkE Up!

x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x

Eileen was helping with the ppt flashing during worship last Sun and i thot she did a good job. Obviously, certain stanza of the songs were not in the ppt, poor girl was desperately hunting for it and at the same time had to revert fast to the page that was there so we could sing. All eyes were on her but its not her fault. Stress! Sweat! If I were her. Thanks Eileen!

IN HIS PRESENCE

2006-06-30T11:33:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 wks since the mind shattering incident. Since then everyday was a struggle. Today, I took a day rest from work as all the urgent tasks had been done. Today, I'm gonna rest in the Lord. I just want to soak in His Holy presence.

like riding the roller-coaster of six flags

2006-06-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

lately

i feel so
physically and emotionally stressed.....so tired....so weak
i juz wanna sleep and slack!

i feel like i'm
on a spiritual roller-coaster.....one moment high....the next low
i juz wanna shout and cry!

LORD, I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME ON THIS RIDE. THANK YOU FOREVER. I REALLY REALLY NEED TO HIDE IN THE SHADOW OF YOUR WINGS.

It's Back!

2006-06-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

Wow! What a surprise! My lovable pet is back! It must be the Comic Heroes personality thingy that I posted which affected my pet. I deleted it and hey presto! My Huggie is back! Hey! Go ahead and feed Huggie a strawberry! Tickle him a couple of times and see him roll in delight!

Thank you Lord for ministering to me at today's worship. It's good to be in the house of the Lord!

TGIF!

2006-06-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

Lots of stuff to do at work. Thank God for helping me with the newsletter and prayerletter. I dread AGM next Wed, gotta write minutes. Stayed back to help my colleague till 8.30pm. Missed Hour of Power. Tired and hungry and weak. TGIF!

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

L........o..............s..................t...................

2006-06-22T18:25:00.000+08:00

i feel strange. confused. a part of me is lost. i don't really know what it is. i am in same surroundings but it doesn't feel the same to me anymore. i feel like i need to get away. away from it all.

for a long time i feel that the closest thing to me next to God is slipping away.
i realised its true now.

i don't feel i've fulfilled my role. i don't feel needed. i don't feel wanted. i feel redundant. i've lost my identity.....

thank you God for your love. you make me feel special. pls help me to find myself in this reality. i'm hurting

I AM A CHILD OF GOD

2006-06-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

CHILD OF GOD

With every breath
With every thought
From what is seen
To the deepest part
I offer all that I've come to be
To know Your love fathering me

Father You're all I need
My soul's sufficiency
My strength when I am weak
The love that carries me
Your arms enfold me
Till I am only a child of God

With every step on this journey's walk
And wisdom's songs that
The soul has sought
I give myself unreservedly
To know Your love
Fathering me

Written by Kathryn Scott
Sung by Jessica Ketola

My Huggie Hedgehog

2006-06-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

Sob....sob.... I lost my virtual pet, Huggie the hedgehog :( He's so cute and adorable. So fun to play with. Sorry I haven't been to play with you since Jan. Did you die of boredom? Replacing you with a new one doesn't seem right. I will just leave your memory here in my blog. Oh dear! My Xinzy is probably dying too in Neopet Land :{

I'm Back To BLOG!

2006-06-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I last blogged. There were many incidents which I really do want to blog it down. Just kept reminding myself to do it but never got to do it. Don't really know why I did not do it. It's just one of those mysterious things about oneself which only God knows.

I've changed my blog title from "My Blog" to "Simply Thoughts" today. I guess I need a new start. I've just gone through a totally life changing experience last Thurs night, 15 June 2006. Man, it really blew me to smithereens. I'm physically and mentally drained by the IMPACT. But spiritually charged up which I hope and pray will last and not fizzled out. I'm not ready to share and talk about it now. Not until God say so.

Still in fatigue. Still drifting in and out of reality. Still can't believe it actually happened to me. Still wondering why me?

But I still give Him the Glory.
ALL GLORY BE UNTO OUR GOD MOST HIGH!

JESUS, I NEED YOU BIG TIME.
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY EMMANUEL!

2006-01-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

BEING POOR AND SICK IS VERY MISERABLE!!!

STILL IN PAIN!

Play with my pet!

2006-01-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

a letter from JESUS

2005-12-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

I received this email from a friend who found this a meaningful and timely reminder. Indeed it is! I found tears streaming down my face while reading it...

A LETTER FROM JESUS
As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated. During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer. It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration. Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration.

I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts. But, do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door in my face ... and I wanted to be with them and share their table. In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all close their doors to me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time. To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor! At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know no-one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one?

I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left. Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink, and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements... Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party. See you soon.

I Love you!

Jesus

IF YOU HAVE NOT INVITED JESUS TO YOUR CHRISTMAS PARTIES.... INTO YOUR LIVES, MY WISH FOR YOU THIS CHRISTMAS IS THAT YOU KNOW WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE HAD DONE FOR YOU, FOR US.

MAY YOU KNOW THE REAL REASON FOR THIS SPECIAL SEASON AND CELEBRATE HIS BIRTHDAY WITH HIM. BECAUSE CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT HIM - JESUS CHRIST! IT'S NOT SANTA CLAUS, CHRISTMAS TREES, TURKEYS AND PIES.

WHY DO WE GIVE PRESENTS? BECAUSE GOD FIRST GAVE US A WONDERFUL PRESENT. HIS PRESENT TO US IS THE HIS ONE & ONLY BELOVED SON, JESUS CHRIST.

AND JESUS ALSO GAVE US A WONDERFUL PRESENT, HE GAVE HIS LIFE TO US SO THAT WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM SHALL HAVE ETERNAL LIFE IN HEAVEN.

CELEBRATE THIS CHRISTMAS WITH A DIFFERENCE! CELEBRATE IT WITH THE BIRTHDAY GUY - JESUS CHRIST!

HERE'S WISHING ALL OF YOU A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS BLESSED BY JESUS AND A NEW YEAR FILLED WITH GOD'S JOY, PEACE AND LOVE! MUACK!

THANK YOU!

2005-11-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling better healthwise and am very thankful and appreciative of all the faithful prayers said for me.

A humungous THANK YOU to my

husband,

family,

pastor,

church friends,
relatives,
colleagues,
bosses,
& friends!

I pray that the Lord will bless all of you with good health too just as I have been blessed by all your prayers! May you be filled with the peace and joy of the Lord!

HERE'S A BIG HUG FROM ME!

Here's to you, JOSK!

2005-11-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

I had a nice time catching up with my good friend at Marche today. We shared food, shared stories and shared about our lives and our work.

It seems that both of us are going through similar situations. So we totally empathize and sympathize with one another. We reminded each other of God's goodness to us and encourage each other to press on, to show others that we are different because we have Jesus in our lives, we must let His love shine in us and through us.

So here's to you JOSK! For sharing and caring! And for shining!

PS. I really like the bag you gave me. Thanks a lot! :)

FAT MAN SAT ON ME!

2005-11-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

As usual, I took the train to work yesterday morning. I closed my eyes and was enjoying my song on my mp3 when suddenly I felt sudden pain on the left side of my body. I instantly opened my eyes and to my horror, saw a fat Malay man squeezing himself on the vacant seat on my left and half of him was on half of me!

I immediately pushed myself out of him and moved to the vacant seat on my right. I was shocked, stunned and in great pain! I felt like being crushed by a bulldozer. My left shoulder, pelvic bone, waist and thigh hurt so much.

The fat man is big and fat. He needs one and a half seat. I could not believed that he could just continue to sit on the seat knowing that he is sitting on part of me! How rude and inconsiderate can anyone be? I stared at him and he simply opened his newspapers to read!

I was in a daze throughout the rest of the journey. If not for the pain, I simply could not believed that this had happened to me, that someone could hurt me like this over a seat. I was emotionally and physically shaken!

I was still hurting a lot when I reached my office and I bursted into tears while telling me colleagues about it. A big thank you to my colleagues who prayed for me and made me felt much better.

It was still painful last night and I have to apply Yoko Yoko before I can fall asleep. It is still a bit painful today.

WHEN YOU TAKE THE TRAIN, BEWARE OF FAT MAN AFTER VACANT SEATS NEXT TO YOU!

STILL SICK!

2005-10-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

sick again!
bronchitis
week after week!
asthma
morning after morning!
reflux
meal after meal!
retina tear
floaters 24/7!
giddy
every now and then!
depress
month after month!

and now stomach flu!
stomachache, diarrohea, fever, body ache, gastrics, vomit............
O Lord! why am I so sickly this year? :(
please please please heal me

XYZ!!! the phone!

2005-10-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from lunch. Desperately wanted to catch some 40 winks in the office. Haven't been sleeping well these couple of weeks (kept waking up to cough out phlegm and clear blocked nose). Good! It's just 1.00pm! There's 30 mins left before I have to start work. I can catch 1200 winks! Haha! (silly joke!)

Ring! Ring! Ring! Ring! Ring! The phone keeps ringing! Don't these people eat lunch? I can't sleep and I don't wanna answer the phone. They must be told of lunchtime hour. Let the answering machine inform them.

I WANT TO SLEEP!

MS GARLIC BREATH!

2005-10-15T12:06:00.000+08:00

I was in the train to work yesterday morn. Happy to get a seat cos was still not well. Got a bit of my voice back and had a block nose.

Along came Ms Garlic Breath and plonked her pretty self besides me. The garlic smell from her breath was so pungent, it was as if she was eating garlic right then! Even with a block nose, I could still smell it! It was simply unbearable! I think even 10 sticks of Wriggley's SuperMint gums could not help her. Thank God I carry a mentholatum nasal stick for the block nose. I quickly whipped it out to use, not for the block nose but to mask the unbearble garlic smell. Ms Garlic Breath promptly felt asleep with her mouth open throughout the whole journey! I kept using the nasal stick!

Throughout the entire journey, I kept wondering what Ms Garlic Breath had eaten for breakfast. Was it Garlic Bread? Was it Lor Mee with 5 big spoonful of minced garlic? Was it Bak Ku Teh and Ms Garlic Breath ate all the cloves of garlic swimming in the soup? Or was it simply just fresh garlic?

Garlic is GOOD for health. It is anti-fungal, anti-inflammatory, lower cholesterol level, help in blood circulation etc. It fortify the body immune system against colds, coughs and other kinds of respiratory ailments. It cures Yeast infection.

Garlic is BAD for the breath!

PS. I take garlic pearl before I go to bed!

LOST!

2005-10-08T12:25:00.000+08:00

Lost my voice today! So sick of getting sick every so often. Just eating a small pack of Super Rings (imitation Cheezels - cheese rings) gave me a sore throat and I came down with fever and throat inflammation. Must be allergic to the preservative or artificial colouring.

Read the book - Greater Health God's Way by Stormie Omartian. She said that only God can create life and only pure food the way God made it, is life giving. Foods that are not natural will always interfere with your body's functions in some way. Natural foods (pure food), the way God made them or as close as possible to the way He made them, promote health, strength, endurance and life. Processed food promote disease and death. It is not created by God but by man. Man started to make the natural foods look "more attractive", be "instantly prepared" and "last forever" on the grocery shelf. He stripped the life out of them and added chemical preservatives, articicial flavours and colours and synthetic vitamins!

They fill your body with toxic poisons and somewhere down the road you will have to pay for it (sickness and diseases). Our foods have been so processed and robbed of life-giving vitamins, minerals and digestive enzymes, that they are a perversion of what God intended.

The more processes it goes through before it gets to your body, the less it will have to offer. When you eat refined, processed, devitalized foods, your body is not nourished and you don't feel satisfied, so you overeat to make up for it. " Let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness our of reverence for God" - 2 Corin 7:1 . Separating yourselves from anything that defiles you is a much higher purpose than catering to your physical appetites. "Everything is permissible - but not everything is beneficial" - 1 Corin 10:23.

Practically 80% (I think) of the food sold in the supermarkets are processed and refined. Pretty soon, I'll have nothing left to eat in this fast and instant world of ours!!!

Wish I could stayed in an organic farm, could have pure food every day!

MY FAVOURITES FROM THE TOP TEN PICS OF THE YEAR!

2005-10-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

Would love to live here if only there is a lift!

Simple but simply artistic!

Isn't this AMAZING!

We are born to Play! Still need proof?

The 7 Dwarfs longing for Snow White!

Wrath of SET!

2005-09-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

I did it! I conquered the "wrath of SET"! Yeah! I finally finished the entire game of Luxor, an Egyptian shooting game! The last stage of the 13th stage journey is the "wrath of SET". When I had finished the game, a window appeared and congratulated me, calling me a brave warrior who had brought peace to two warring lands. I am given lots of gold and precious gems as a reward! How I wish that is for real!

Well, time to download another new game!

OH NO!! I'VE GOT A TEAR IN MY RETINA !!!

2005-09-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

I've got a tear in my retina! I had floaters in my left eye since Mar this year. They never go away and is in my vision 24/7! I have a lot of tiny black dots formed in a circle around my eye and two interlinking circles in the middle of my vision. It's kinda of like having a drop of water on my glasses. It's so very irritating. Sometimes I mistakes the black ones for small flying insects and I try to wave them away.

At first my GP thought I had burst my tiny blood vessels caused by my hard and prolonged coughing, I had bronchitis and asthma for 6 continuous months! But the floaters did not go away, I had it for 6 months and finally went to see a eye specialist. He told me I had a tear in my retina and it is causing me to see floaters. The tear is not caused by too much coughing or too much eye rubbing. It is not caused by a deficiency of any nutrient. Myopic people are just more prone to having tear in the retina, the doc told me. I have never of it from any bespectacled people I know! I think not many of us know about it but it is true, I went to check it in the internet. I so "shuay" lor, it just have to happen to me! As if I don't have enough medical problems already! For those who know me, you know what I mean!

Anyway, I have to go for lazer retinoplexy, a type of lazer treatment to seal the tear. If it is not seal, the tear will get bigger and becomes detached, that will be detached retina. That will cause blindness.

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO PRAYED FOR ME. THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING WITH ME.

I had the lazer done on Tuesday at TTSH. It set me back by $500. It was rather painful and the pain radiates to the left side of my head. But that, I could put up, it was the doctor that I could not stand!

There was a sign outside the room stating that cell phones are not allowed within 20m of machines. Guess what, when he was fixing the lens on my eyes, his mobile rang and he answered it with one hand still holding the lens that was kind of stuck on my eye! I was in that awkard position for a couple of minutes while he yakked on his mobile! He is so so lacking in bedside manners! He didn't even inform me when he started zapping my eye. After the procedure, gel was flowing down my face and he didn't pass me a tissue nor did he asked me whether I was alright. He happily asked me to follow him out of the room with me desperately trying to clean my eye and face with a tissue that I had managed to grab on the way out!

I was in distress cos I could not open my left eye due to the gel and all he wanted was to get me to make an appt to see him next Tues and pay up! After giving the instruction to the nurse, he happily went off! He did not even give me any instructions and I still have to pay him for consultation on top of the lazer! It's simply ridiculous!!

Anyway, I rested for a couple of days and went back to work today. It was terrible! The moment I reached the office, I started to get a headache. Both my temples throbbed the whole day. I guess the office lights are too bright for me. I hope I'll be fine by next Mon.

Both my parents have macular degeneration in one eye. There is a big black spot in the middle of their vision. Thank God they still have one good eye so they can still see well.

Just wanna advise this - if you have myopia, pls start taking supplement for your eyes - bilberry, lutein, Vit A, wolfberries etc. These are good for retina and macular vision. Start now if you want to have good healthy eyes and eyesight!

THANK YOU LORD ONCE AGAIN FOR HEALING ME!

BLOG???

2005-09-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

What do i blog? Do i really want to blog and let everyone know my most personal, private and intimate thoughts and actions?

Hmmmm.......

Hmmmm.....hmmm.....hmm....

Zzzzz.............