SO BUZY!! SUPER TIRED!!!

Hair Do!

Finally got the time to do what I have wanted to do since few months back. Heehee! I went to perm my hair! It took me three hours which is usual for me when I perm my hair. Got myself a Japanese perm. Quite like it cos now the two sides of my face is slightly covered, making my face a bit slimmer. Haha, fancy resorting to such means to make my big face look smaller. Will be colouring my hair on Sat, too much white showing. Hmmm....think will go for more drastic change and highlight my hair too!

God is in Control.

Why do we feel the way we feel? Don't like the way you feel now? Tell Papa God, He is in control of everything. Surrender your thoughts and bad/sad feelings to Him, He will give you a new mindset, a new perspective, a new way of looking at yourself and others and most of all, a new joy which only He can give.

Lord Jesus, take captive of my thoughts and feelings, even when I am asleep. Amen.

40 Already!!!

So the big day came and went with makan and more makan. Started a wk before the actual day and will be having more celebratory meals for the next few weeks. I can't bear to weight myself. Sob...sob...

Still, a big thank you to everyone who had contributed to my extra calorie intake. To all those who got me lovely presents, thank you so much too!

Decided to link all those who had linked me in their blogs. Very "pai seh", so can't be lazy anymore. Suddenly in the mood while doing it and started linking more and more. Heehee!

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, Being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them! If I should count them,
They would be more in number that the sand.

THANK YOU PAPA GOD FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH.

Emotions Overload!

Sigh!!! I'm suffering from a big dose of emotions overload! Sad, worry, afraid, relief, happy, fear, depression, all kinds of emotions. Sometimes, I can be having all these emo in just 1 day. It is so taxing and draining on me. So do bear with me cos I've been struggling for more than a month now.

Thank you Lord that although my feelings keep changing, you are always the same, your feelings for me never change, you always love me. You are the "constant" that I need.

Help me Oh God to take captive of my feelings and thoughts to Jesus. I can't manage on my own.

STEPHEN MY DEAR HUSBAND!

I SO SO SO LOVE MY HUSBAND!

THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL HUSBAND!

Revelation Revealed at 40!

The significance of the number 40!

The Israelites wandered in the wilderness for 40 years before they were brought into the promised land.

My husband was lost for 40 years before he found Jesus and was saved.

I was spiritually blinded and confused for 40 years until God revealed the truth to me and set me free.

All these while, I was in the dark, not knowing that the battle was on and had been on all these years. No wonder it was such a struggle for me. "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."

Heavenly Father, I thank you eternally for your revelation to me. I can't bear the thought of being in darkness another day more if not for your revelation. Help me to put on the whole armor of God everyday, really to battle for your kingdom.

Aged Old Remedy - Sea, Sand and Sun

Yesterday, we went to Pulau Ubin to celebrate Youth Day with the youth of course! This is the only part of S'pore that doesn't changed much except for the tourist service centre with nice toilets and the exhibit area.

It was hot and sunny but all the greenery and fruit trees made up for it. The mozzies were celebrating too as we were on their menu. Thank you Eileen for the insect repellent. Sigh. My poor arms had not recovered from the mozzies assault from church camp yet!

It's a nice change to be out at sea, kicking sand at the beach under the sun on a working day. Most of all, those kids were a good bunch! Glad we brought them out.

Little Ah Ma's blog will tell you everything, well, almost. Nice pics there too and Stephen will post his photos later, some of which I've taken.

the eagle had landed

so the eagle is back! had been back for quite a while actually. somehow wings got clipped and is lying low. anyway its good to know that she's back safe and sound. at one stage while waiting for her to contact me since last Dec, i thot maybe she got kidnapped or was forced to married someone in rural China, maybe her plane got hijacked, maybe she decided not to come back to boring S'pore and went backpacking around the world. maybe....maybe....

"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

rAndOm thOts

I wAs wAtchIng tv EArlIEr On, A bAby wAs shOwned And sUddEnly flAsh! flAsh! flAsh! I wAs rEmIndEd Of A drEAm I hAd lAst nIght. I drEAmEd I wAs cArryIng A bAby gIrl In my Arms, AbsOlUtEly thrIllEd wIth hEr, lOOkIng AftEr hEr wIth lOvIng tEndEr cArE! shE sEEms lIkE mInE And I wAs tOtAlly At blIss! sIgh! why dO I hAvE tO wAkE Up!

x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x o x

Eileen was helping with the ppt flashing during worship last Sun and i thot she did a good job. Obviously, certain stanza of the songs were not in the ppt, poor girl was desperately hunting for it and at the same time had to revert fast to the page that was there so we could sing. All eyes were on her but its not her fault. Stress! Sweat! If I were her. Thanks Eileen!

IN HIS PRESENCE

It's been 2 wks since the mind shattering incident. Since then everyday was a struggle. Today, I took a day rest from work as all the urgent tasks had been done. Today, I'm gonna rest in the Lord. I just want to soak in His Holy presence.

like riding the roller-coaster of six flags

lately

i feel so
physically and emotionally stressed.....so tired....so weak
i juz wanna sleep and slack!


i feel like i'm
on a spiritual roller-coaster.....one moment high....the next low
i juz wanna shout and cry!


LORD, I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME ON THIS RIDE. THANK YOU FOREVER. I REALLY REALLY NEED TO HIDE IN THE SHADOW OF YOUR WINGS.

It's Back!

Wow! What a surprise! My lovable pet is back! It must be the Comic Heroes personality thingy that I posted which affected my pet. I deleted it and hey presto! My Huggie is back! Hey! Go ahead and feed Huggie a strawberry! Tickle him a couple of times and see him roll in delight!

Thank you Lord for ministering to me at today's worship. It's good to be in the house of the Lord!

TGIF!

Lots of stuff to do at work. Thank God for helping me with the newsletter and prayerletter. I dread AGM next Wed, gotta write minutes. Stayed back to help my colleague till 8.30pm. Missed Hour of Power. Tired and hungry and weak. TGIF!

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

L........o..............s..................t...................

i feel strange. confused. a part of me is lost. i don't really know what it is. i am in same surroundings but it doesn't feel the same to me anymore. i feel like i need to get away. away from it all.

for a long time i feel that the closest thing to me next to God is slipping away.
i realised its true now.

i don't feel i've fulfilled my role. i don't feel needed. i don't feel wanted. i feel redundant. i've lost my identity.....

thank you God for your love. you make me feel special. pls help me to find myself in this reality. i'm hurting

I AM A CHILD OF GOD

CHILD OF GOD

With every breath
With every thought
From what is seen
To the deepest part
I offer all that I've come to be
To know Your love fathering me

Father You're all I need
My soul's sufficiency
My strength when I am weak
The love that carries me
Your arms enfold me
Till I am only a child of God

With every step on this journey's walk
And wisdom's songs that
The soul has sought
I give myself unreservedly
To know Your love
Fathering me

Written by Kathryn Scott
Sung by Jessica Ketola

My Huggie Hedgehog

Sob....sob.... I lost my virtual pet, Huggie the hedgehog :( He's so cute and adorable. So fun to play with. Sorry I haven't been to play with you since Jan. Did you die of boredom? Replacing you with a new one doesn't seem right. I will just leave your memory here in my blog. Oh dear! My Xinzy is probably dying too in Neopet Land :{

I'm Back To BLOG!

It's been so long since I last blogged. There were many incidents which I really do want to blog it down. Just kept reminding myself to do it but never got to do it. Don't really know why I did not do it. It's just one of those mysterious things about oneself which only God knows.

I've changed my blog title from "My Blog" to "Simply Thoughts" today. I guess I need a new start. I've just gone through a totally life changing experience last Thurs night, 15 June 2006. Man, it really blew me to smithereens. I'm physically and mentally drained by the IMPACT. But spiritually charged up which I hope and pray will last and not fizzled out. I'm not ready to share and talk about it now. Not until God say so.

Still in fatigue. Still drifting in and out of reality. Still can't believe it actually happened to me. Still wondering why me?

But I still give Him the Glory.
ALL GLORY BE UNTO OUR GOD MOST HIGH!

JESUS, I NEED YOU BIG TIME.
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY EMMANUEL!

BEING POOR AND SICK IS VERY MISERABLE!!!

STILL IN PAIN!

Play with my pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!